It took me until the end of my intern year to fully understand and internalize this message, so I’m going to say it loud and clear here:
BEING A DOCTOR IS BRAVE!
I spent most of the first part of my first year as a physician climbing the giant mountain of fear and anxiety and paperwork that is intern year, and it’s hard to scrape together perspective when you’re doing that. Especially when you have very little time for reflection. And especially when everything is terrifying all the time, so you feel like a scared mouse.
Being a doctor is terrifying, and so what you’re doing is brave.
Not many people go to work and prescribe treatments that could help or hurt people.
Not many people talk to a million different strangers all the time.
Not many people sign up to answer the plan of care questions from nurses that have been working in the hospital longer than you’ve been alive.
Not many people take on the risk of using your own damn judgment when it comes to what to do for a patient.
Not many people have ever run to a code blue. Not many people have to try to think of what to do when a person is really sick.
Not many people wake up in the morning to take over responsibility for people’s lives.
Most people aren’t brave enough to be a doctor. You are.
Give yourself some credit for that.